ringing telephone

I hear my phone ring hasn't rung all night

I don't know what it's for but to pick up take all of my might

the voice on the other end is cracking and shaking

they tell me that you've gone and my heart it starts breaking

you've fought this for years but couldn't make it through

as i hold back my tears all i can think is how much i miss you

My memory of you is already clouded and droopy

that memory fell through like a basketball goes through a hoop

the last time i saw you you were mad and you told me you hate me

now that plagues my thoughts and i can't believe that you're gone

the sickness it took you and we knew that it would

but that didn't force us to treat one another the way that we should

now that you've gone in the ground in a case of wood

all i can do is tell myself i did all that i could

fifty years later i wonder if it will feel the same

as it did that first day i wonder if i'll still place the blame

on myself even though i know that that can't be true

what happened was faultless no one to blame not me not you

you've been gone so long that it feels you were never here

no matter how much time goes by my vision won't clear

an eternity could pass through my life like a dream passes through my head

and it won't change how much i miss you laying in my bed